I Found My Love – Writing 

Life is full of surprises and we often surprise ourselves when faced with challenging situations. I was put in one such situation and my decision surprised and terrified me. It was the excitement  filled terror that took over me! 

I’m planning to leave to full time job as an Engineer to do something that I love the most – to write! 

Yes! I’m leaving my high paid job in a global multi million dollar group to pursue my passion. 

When I think about it, writing has always been a part of life. Time and again, I go back to writing. But, due to the ‘mainstream’ path that the Indian society considers, my dreams of becoming a writer was buried. 

I kept it just as hobby, something to go back to at the end of the day. 

But what happens when those nights of writing excites you more? 

What if you catch yourself dreaming about sentences and content during your day job? 

What do you do when all you want to badly do is write an article on that fresh thought you got, immediately, like right now in middle of the day job? 

It’s when you realize that enough is enough. I am going to take this decision. 

I have found my love. 

Though it scares me and sometimes pains me physically to think about all the obstacles I have to face, I’m ready to give it a try because that’s how badly I want it. I really believe that my passion will win at the end and I’m ready to do all it takes. 

P.S: I’m now seeking any freelance or full-time assignments or jobs as a content writer or editor. To see my samples, check out the link – my writings. If you need any freelance articles or come to know of any opportunities please do contact me at lakshmipadmanaban05@gmail.com 

Thank you all for your support! ☺ 

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Not So Anonymous Anymore

‘Anonymous’ – the word that holds a world of secrets than a cryptic dome.

Like some of you, I felt comfortable being anonymous. Don’t take me wrong. I am not someone who hides in a cocoon inside her own room. I am part of many social media accounts and I don’t shy from being active in them.I chose to be anonymous – in Instagram. Not my personal account where I am quite active, but the other account I opened as a sort of blog to pen my feelings and thoughts that randomly crop up in my mind in the most unexpected times.

I have an another blog in WordPress where I write reviews of stories on Wattpad, in my own identity.

So why did I choose to be anonymous in this?

Because it made me feel safe. 

It was the first time I am opening up my feelings and having it out on display for the world to see. I did not want to own my feelings and thoughts – to give a credible source to it.

For many such reasons that seems silly to me now, I decided to ‘not’ identify myself, or more like, I did not want to connect the feelings and thoughts on the blog to myself.

And that Instagram handle is what you see in the right hand side of my blog!

What made me switch from ‘being anonymous’ to ‘connecting my identity to my feelings’?

Courage.

I got fed up of hiding under a pseudonym and angry on myself to be such a coward in social media, while I’m just the opposite of that in my real life.

I wanted to come out of my comfortable zone, and own up to what I deserve, good or bad.

And that moment changed something within me. Though I was brave in my real life, when it comes to my writings, I became the most shy person! I didn’t want the people closest to me to read my writings. But this small step made me to be move forward in that direction.

I am still not 100% comfortable. but I am certainly working towards it and have come a long way to be here till now.

P.S: That Instagram handle’s name is ‘The Thoughtful Rants‘, same like this blog. This blog was started when I revealed my identity in my Instagram handle.

And now that all my readers and followers know who I am, what is need to keep the name ‘The Thoughtful Rants’, which was created for the sole reason of anonymity?

So what do you think? Should I forfeit the blog name and instead take another step forward and use my own identity? 

Please comment your opinions.

An advance thank you to all!

 

Much-needed Change 

People are generally on the look out for change; for something different which keeps them engaged and on their toes. 

Though at the beginning, changes will be welcomed, as time goes on, once the very interesting work would become a boring one if it is steady and stagnant. 

Even when sometimes change is not welcomed, in the bigger picture, change is what is needed to sustain in life and keep it interesting.  

Change doesn’t necessarily mean the growth in life although that is what people generally hope for. Change can even be in reverse direction. Any kind of change makes people work towards something; drives and motivates people to set a goal or a target and strive to achieve it. 

A constant life might be what people say they need. But only when being in a constant life will one realize that change is what they actually need and starts to secretly and desperately yearn for a change – in any direction. 

Embrace the change in life; it is what makes you look forward to tomorrow. It is what brings all the unknown emotions to the surface. It is what reveals the true colors and real intentions of individuals. 

Change has the capability to bring out the hidden qualities, good and bad thoughts, real feelings and heartfelt emotions. 

The mother of all reasons – change – does more than you realize. Constant change must be the only constant in your life to move forward, to relinquish stagnancy, to push aside the boring life. 

IS EQUALITY A FAVOR?

Equality between men and women has been a long-term topic which crops up here and there, with some supporting in favor that equality has indeed been achieved, while some points that, modernism in the world does not even begin to cover equality.

While the world is divided on this topic, from my own personal experiences of these 22 years, equality is a term which people have not even begun to comprehend to the full extent. Equality between men and women doesn’t mean are so ‘generous’ as to ‘give’ the women equality as some sort of ‘favor’. Only when it comes naturally to people, just like we brush your teeth daily. It is not something that people has to do consciously, though at the beginning the need to develop the quality must essentially be started like that.

And to the men, who boast that, they treat their women equally, it is not something to feel proud of. Do you feel proud to provide food for your family? Like everything which is of a necessity, it is something that needs to be put in ‘default mode’.

There is no greater male chauvinist than a man who boasts of treating women around him equally.

 

THE BLAME WITHIN

The war within;

so horrendous that,

it terrifies me

of my future.

 

The clashes between, the past

trying hard to match,

with the future ‘imaginary castles’

that I am already living in.

 

I blame the heart, for

it is the culprit that overrode

the brain to make me believe

that unicorns exist.

 

The blame game starts-

the war waging between

the heart and brain

to decide who is the bane.

 

 

A SIMPLE GESTURE TO MYSELF, FROM ME!

Hello guys! Having a nice day?

No? You can try to make yourself feel better like me!

The other day, I had a rough day at work which had been followed by a series of rough days before it. When I usually feel bad, I end up sulking and wasting my whole evening. I was so tired of feeling sorry for myself that I decided to do a simple gesture for myself, instead of depending on the outside surroundings.

I did not do anything big. I wanted to feel good about myself, without any third person’s help. So immediately after I came back from work, I took a long, relaxing hot shower, wore my favorite pair of shorts and hoodie, combed my hair real nice like I like, and took out my favorite stash of chocolates, which I always save it for occasions like these! I started out with seeing my favorite series, obviously F.R.I.E.N.D.S (you would have guessed it, if you had read my previous posts!) and then continued on to read the Jeffrey Archer’s Best Kept Secret, which I was halfway through, but hadn’t completed because of, you know these series of rough days burying me.

I made myself feel good about myself, both physically and mentally and I ended up having a good time with myself. I even started playing  some songs and goofing around in my room, jumping up in my bed! That was how much I had lifted my mood up, and to say the least, even I was surprised that such a small gesture to myself brought such a big positive change on me!

That was when I realized that, our control of mood is with us, and not with anyone us. It all comes down to our own self to find out what makes us happy, what factor can bring us back to that little circle of inner contentment, to turn a bad day into good. The one thing is that, we have to really stubborn enough to stand up and say that, ‘Bring it on. Whatever you do, you can’t waver me from my good mood.’

If you guys are having a bad day, all it takes is ‘You’, to be happy amidst the bad day.

Feel free to comment your opinions 🙂

Once a F.R.I.E.N.D.S addict, always a F.R.I.E.N.D.S addict!

Once, during my college days, I was fed up of watching a lot of movies that I decided to watch an English Series for a change. And that was when I decided to see what all these hype was about F.R.I.E.N.D.S. And that is when my addiction towards it started.

Once I started watching it, there was no stopping. I was just burning through all the episodes in such a speed that my parents got worried about me because I use to laugh so loud in middle of the night that they would wake up! 😀 I was able to complete it within a month, watching it night and day during any possible free time I get.

That was when I realised that I found the perfect cure to all the problems. I don’t mean that the incidents from the episodes helped me directly, but watching F.R.I.E.N.D.S. would distract me from my problems, cheer me up when I feel like I can’t get up and put a smile on my face when I’m all teary eyes. It would give me some amount of distraction from the problem by cranking me up so hard and get me in a lighter note so that, after sometime if I look at or approach the situation, I am able to percieve it from a newer angle, thus giving me the confidence that I never had before.

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From that time on till now, not a week has passed since i haven’t seen F.R.I.E.N.D.S. I would just close my eyes and keep on clicking in the F.R.I.E.N.D.S. folder since any random episode shoots up ( :P) and I feel free from my worries for that 20 minutes.

 

Doesn’t feel like doing anything? Watch F.R.I.E.N.D.S.

Feels like you have no one? Watch F.R.I.E.N.D.S.

A really bad day at college? Watch F.R.I.E.N.D.S.

Wanna get away from all the chaos outside? Watch F.R.I.E.N.D.S.

Got hurt by someone close? Watch F.R.I.E.N.D.S.

Saturda night and no plans? Watch F.R.I.E.N.D.S.

Feels like a loser? Watch F.R.I.E.N.D.S.

 

F.R.I.E.N.D.S. has helped me cope up with many major problems in my life than any other real , living person. I may seem delirious to some who haven’t watched it, but those who have will be able to get me 🙂

It has a made a total addict from which I never want to come out of.

I’m really thankful for F.R.I.E.N.D.S. for being an ‘Anchor’ in my life when no one was!